This post has been 2 months in the making, and so hard to write... I even had it scheduled to go live last Saturday, accidentally sent the email out, and then had to retract it, OMG (being human is hard too apparently, LOL)! I would definitely like to apologize again for blowing-up everyone's email last weekend, I just wasn't ready to publish. Failing at something I wanted to be good at hurts SO BAD!! But I'm hoping that being transparent with all of you now, will be sort of therapeutic!!